Debut

9.15.08

Dreadful dawns, hourless days
Hollowed in my heart, hauled on through the pain
Last words from a friend, true tears I've cried
Living through nothing, watching days turn into nights.

Sorrow in my heart, in my mind, in my words
Terrified of time, no voice to ever be heard.
Wishing the world can stand still and wait
Still I feel betrayed, anger, fear, hate. . .

Seeking for a friend, or the ghost of the remains
But my days wills stay silent, recall the smile that he gave . . .
And still I smiled back, through the shallow heart in me
But inside it meant nothing, chains that won't set free.

Do you feel, do you know, that such yearning for one person
Can turn into a hell, into a nightmare, a daydream that has worsened
My love, these years won't be worth living
No more smiles, or sunlit days, as flowers turn to withering.

But still I'll live through my calamity, through this fuck of life
Don't love me, my friend, no more closeness to cause strife
Yet I can't help it, and I love, through this fear of growing older
The nights I'll cry, I'll wish, I'll look to the stars and wait.

Moonlit scenery, last for a second.
Time will pass, time is up, the sorrow I'll let in.
The pain is eternal, because of him . . . (I miss him) . . .

Because the world I knew shattered before
my eyes as I felt him slip through my fingers . . .