Dreams and Ashes

8.9.10

For each dream

In my head, I recite the lines.

Moments with a ghost

The dead of passing time.

For each tear

A promise that I break.

For each dreaded day

An oath of death I take.

What to do

When there's simply nothing left?

For comfort I long

Besides that sleep I dread.

I once loved

The escape under closed eyes.

But now there's no time,

Oh eight was the last sign.

And I tried

To wake up with commitment

But how I've failed,

Making everything meaningless.

Besides this

Is my aching, yearning state

For the star, the night

The moon that was mine as of late.

You and me

I promise, together

Our charred skeletons

Will lay in the dust, forever.

Negatives

7.23.10

“I will wait for you.”

Whispers lost into the night.

All devoured, lights, hopes

All I once dreamed of.

It kills me to see me

Stooped down so low

Strange days of gray

Dust filling our mouths

Disposable love

Transparent eyes

Tears fall black, ever

Tears falling forever

The more I try to get away,

The more in love with him I fall.

I find my days in the past

Bring me something like

A hidden message.

Like a song finally listened to

At the end of an album

Bought years ago.

I hope I can get myself

Out of this, long out of this.

But I know all hope is dead.

Take my hand. Don't be scared.

We'll fall into this labyrinth of darkness.

Together. Forever.

“Relieve me, finally, of life and love.”

Unnamed

Circa March 2010

Ambiguous absence of noise. Then, cataclysmic.
All. Nothing.
The chill-invoking roar of angelic
And yet so hell-inspiring tunes of harmonies.

All stands still. Atmospheric.
Colors
Of white and gray. Isolation.
Is there any way out?

Snowed-in mountains
Trapped
In by all of them . . .
There is no way out.

Just stand on the side and
Watch
It all glide through.
The beauty. The freedom.

The lust and desire you feel for it all.
Yet
Captivated they all are from you.
They're there, on display
Like
A painting at a museum.

But everybody can touch them
Though
They are kept back.

Everyone, except for me.
Stars fall.
But he never will.