Stars, Roads, and Ashes

11.6.08

Woke up from a dream today
The stars had turned into bats
Million flying in frenzy,
They chased me into a trap.

These years, so full of wonder
What with the new years comes?
The trap I was lead into
Left me with two roads ahead

One road leads to contentment
The places I was meant to go
Where I sit among mere mortals
Nearly equals controlling me

The other leads to kingdoms,
The places I want to go
Full of dreams and desires
The chance to become a god.

Full of will, full of despair
Can I trust my own trust?
In choosing the right road,
Can I handle what I'll walk into?

So fickle, no commitment
The desires up ahead
Never stable, never happy
Until my sword drips with red.

Will I see the end, does it come near
When the moon and sun collapse?
Will I do everything I want done
Will I be remembered, or my name be among none?

Should I sit among the gods,
Or do I walk this world alone?
Shall I decay, become dust,
Do I deserve what I want?

Still, in my heart, there gapes a hole
Through and through, it empties my soul.
And my will and ability are suddenly nothing.
Failure as my ashes join the bats in the stars.