Wishing Well

7.16.09

Oh, solemn wishing well
If only you could hear
The cries and thoughts within my mind
The sadness growing with each year.

The pain and losses I have held
And the joys and happiness
The former I fear outweighs the latter
So pain is akin as caress.

The things I wish I can go back and do
And the things I have already done.
Things I wish I'd never said
And the darkness still to come.

The years I've spent in happiness
Have passed now, and grow farther
Now it seems time is frozen in this state
And this emptiness grows larger.

The songs that saved my life those days
Do none but make me worse
My best memories and good times in all
Do naught but feed this curse.

Still, in those days, all seemed taken for granted
I couldn't see beyond the light of the sun
The things I wish I had and said
The longing I still feel--it's never done.

Torn apart inside; I can't decipher what I feel
Hate is minimal, pride is none
These visions that send sparks down my spine
Feed the sadness and joy into one.

The echoes still ring from moments past,
In your well, and still all comes to its end
Which is beginning for others, this daunting cycle
Has left everything burned, nothing left to send.

The life I've known has been "live and let die"
No second tries exist for me anymore.
Those feelings and moments I chase in hind
Are lost like memories, like tears fall to the floor.